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Doors

O just told me a retake on an old adage, namely, when one door closes, another one opens. The bit suggested opening the closed door, since that is how doors work.

I like the agency that suggests; that we don't have to passively take whatever door happens to be open to us, or accept the closing of doors that we would prefer stay open. We can instead open the damned door ourselves. I countered that sometimes the door is locked, and in those cases there is no sense pounding on that door forever if there is another one open (even looking up from our fight with the locked door is hard). That said, knocking on a locked door might get someone to come to the other side and open it for you. Not directly using our agency on the door, but still asking that it become unlocked. Note that pounding on the door is more likely to scare off anyone on the other side, rather than enlist their cooperation.

Nice metaphor.

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Pictures from NRWC 2013

My photos from Northern Region War Camp 2013 can be found here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/13925392@N02/sets/72157634582927059/

They highlight the heavy list fighters, Court, the vigil of Countess Alethea Eastriding, various protege and household ceremonies, and, obviously, the lovely people of the SCA.

Please feel free to use my photos in any way that makes both you and the people in the images happy. :)

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Jun. 24th, 2013

So. Yeah. Just when I think my life must have run out of other shoes to drop, up it shows with booty from a raid on an outlet mall.

In short, this can stop *anytime now*. Rolling with so many things in a row, in so many areas of my life, I'm starting to feel a little bit like a one-woman avalanche, but I refuse to tiptoe through my own life, you know? I just want the damned thing to finish falling already! Gah!

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The Matter of Love

Today I am loving, and honoring, three very different men. One is is a gas, and needs someone there to help hold him together, so I'll be there, week in and week out, trying to help keep him from drifting away. One is a liquid, flowing from shape to shape, trying things out, changing again; a little uncertain, but trying to be clear, trying to find his flow. I'll bear witness to that, and be present to him and to his experience. I might even dip my toe in sometimes, when I'm invited. The last is solid, and recently chipped. He's trying to figure out where his edges are, and my being close to him right now might block his view of himself, and might get me cut on shards besides. I need to stay away while he does what he needs to do, and I wish him well in smoothing out what sharp edges he finds.

My experiences with these three men at the present time are totally different, and the love I feel for each of them is different, but the love I feel for them; the connection I honor with each of them, regardless of the distance from which I do it, is real. That love, that honoring, matters.

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Unpacking

Yes, there is physical stuff that needs unpacking, and since I am in VT, boxing stuff, there will soon be more, but I'm writing today about mental unpacking.

I've been unpacking a box of previously-overwhelming guilt-connected to-dos this week, and I'm feeling really good about it. Stuff that has just sat there and made me feel bad about myself for too long is getting dealt with. Yay! Even better, I have momentum going, and am committed to continuing to deal with the other items on the list: I'm looking for work, and am systematically developing more skillsets to up my employability. I'm getting my financial house in order, which includes getting this VT house ready for sale. I'm thinking about my friendships and other relationships, looking at the roles I play in each of them, figuring out which ones feed me in some way, and which ones don't. I'm looking at my life, figuring out what is most likely to help propel me forward, and doing it, and most likely to hold me back, and ditching it.

I'm unpacking my life, figuring out what goes where, and getting on with living. I refuse to live out of boxes.

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Holiday prep

Change of plans: NOT going to Vermont this weekend, no matter how badly I need to, since I know it totally wouldn't feel worth it to me to blow Christmas plans because I was exhausted just to get another load of stuff out of the house.

SO: my new place is blessed with a ludicrous amount of flat surface, including tons for both baking and wrapping. Anyone who might be interested in a Baking and Wrapping Palooza Party on Sunday?

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Chinese Blessing and Curse

You know that Chinese blessing/curse that is purported to say "May you live in interesting times?"

I think it has a corollary: "May you love interesting people."

Can be SO incredibly hard, but is SO incredibly worth it. 

Dec. 8th, 2012

Thanks to the wonders of the Internet, I got to light the candles with Freya in Montreal this evening.

Chag Sameach! Happy Chanukah! :)

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Oct. 18th, 2012

Happy birthday, TradArcher! May your year ahead be filled with health, friendship, and gifelte fish! ;)